Every time I see something, or I'm reminded of what I don't have, I feel my gut clench a little tighter inside. I know it's a lost cause, I know that we'll never get back to the way we used to be, I know that I can't go back and fix the mistakes I made. I know that.
I just want one day where I'm not reminded of how much I fucked up when I walked away from what I had. I don't even want to go back to that, or get you back, all I want is this feeling to go away.
You're happy, you've moved on. That's fantastic. Now I just wish I could too.
Yes, this is in place of an update about something else major going on in my life. I just don't know if I'm ready to talk about that yet.